MOM wanna play trains??

Well once again its been a bit since I have been on here.Halloween,Christmas,New Years and Jonathan's 4th birthday has now passed.Time goes by so fast,everything is soo busy and it feels like in a blink the months have passed.My boy is growing and with that the questions are never ending.His new interest and questions are about heaven,and I mean a lot of questions.I find it very hard to answer some of his questions where he is only 4 and I wasn't brought up in church myself.He knows there is a place up in the clouds called heaven.He asks how do we get there?How do we get down?Maybe we can bring a latter to get back down lol??One day he was asking again I and I told him that someone day we all go there,like,we have this home here and when its our time to go to heaven that will be our new home..Welllll I wasn't even finished saying that when I noticed his little eyes fill up and he tried so hard not to cry.I though oh gawd what did I say wrong?Did I say to much?Did I scare him??I said what's the matter Jonathan?He said, but but mom.....and then the tears flew...What about my trains????Can they come with me??LOLOL..I said yes dear,its ok they can go with you..lolol..So Sunday school it is I think coming up for my boy..His trains...His trains..He loves his trains..Since he was 2 he started to love trains,all trains but Thomas is his fav...Everyday he plays trains even if its for only 10 mins or so,and you always hear Mommmmm wanna play trains?Wanna play trains?Wanna make a new track??We play a lot,some days I think to myself oh gawd not again but I do end up dragging myself to the floor and we play.I remind myself every time i don't want to play that one day there will come a time he won't ask.A time where he will want to be with his friends,a time where there will be no toys/trains all around my house..A time he will be all grown up.Some people cherish their house,take pride in the fancy things,things in its place,and having a nice house.I however cherish my home,mess,toys and all,my home is very much lived in,played in and I like to think laughed in.His 4th birthday...We had all his little friends over from daycare,it was a busy day.He had fun.One thing about that day I will never forget is when we all gathered around the table waiting for Jonathan to make a wish before blowing out his candles,we all got a huge surprise in what he had to say.I said go ahead Jonathan make a wish,with no idea what he was going to say,he said I wish...I wish...And i was thinking oh gawd what is gonna come out of his mouth???lolol..And in a little tiny voice Jonathan says..I wish..I just love my family...lol..Everyone including me was soo shocked I was waiting to hear a wish for another train again..lol..I could of blatted right there..It meant a lot to hear that,and from a 4 year old boy..I know some people had to think we got him to say that but we didn't..It was soo nice.On another note,lolol,my boy asks me,Mom do you know my fingers can say bad words??lololol...Nice, i thought,good gawd,the things he picks up from daycare.lololol..I think the questions are only going to get harder from here..

The Little Could Engine..lol

Well the summer has pasted since I was on here last.Soo many things my boy did and said,he is growing so fast and what a little character he is.Where to start??We decided to get Jonathan into soccer this year, just a chance to get out and something different and maybe meet some new friends..Well it wasn't what I thought it would be like, a little young this year I think,he hated it really,lol..First of all who plans a soccer game with a bunch of 3 year olds in a park yard with swings and slides ect??The whole time each week for the big 45 mins it was Jonathan we can go to the park after,no Jonathan stay here ect lol.Than you start teaching your child to share from very early on and than they go play soccer just to try to take it from each other,this did not go over very well with Jonathan and makes sense to me really..He couldn't understand why all of a sudden he was suppose to try to take this ball from someone,he didnt think that was very nice and got sooo upset when someone did take it from him.I said Buddy that's how you play the game, only 1 ball and everyone is suppose to get it to kick it..He said once, but Mom it isn't nice to take things that don't belong to you..He kinda did have a good point,lol.Maybe next year will be easier..The last game of the season he got his first and only goal and he was so proud and so was I.I threw my hands in the air and yelled yeahhhhhhhh Jonathan good job,picked him up and hugged him soo hard.Than I let him down to looked up and everyone was looking at me like I was one of those crazy mother's that makes such an big deal over things and I have to say I did,and i will..lol..Another thing we did over the summer was we went to the play house to see Toopie and Bino.He was soo excited and enjoyed it very much,however,i wasn't too sure which entertained him the most the show or the man sitting behind us with 1 arm?!lol..He had been turned around in his seat when the lights were on and I thought he was just looking and point to the kids behind him...Well guess he wasn't..I turned around to see what he was looking at and it was a man sitting there with 1 arm!I turned and looked and there was Jonathan with his little finger in the air pointing at him saying look Mama look!I didn't know what to say nor did I want to say anthing at all,the chairs were soo close..I kept saying Jonathan turn around please,he said but Mama look!UGH!After the show I asked him why he wanted me to look at him to see what he would say.He did say because he only had 1 arm.I explained to him that everyone is different and its ok everyone is different and that maybe we shouldn't stare at people that we might hurt someone's feelings..He looked at me and said awwwwww Mom I was only teasing him,lolol..Since Christmas time last year Jonathan fell in love with trains,Thomas the Train..We decided to take him to Moncton to see some real trains, he LOVED IT..We had a good time.I found him the book The Little Engine that Could book,I was surprised he wasn't that interested till we rented the movie..He loved it,it was his first full movie he sat down and watched, over and over at that.He kept saying Mom can we watch The Little Could Engine now??lol It really is such a great storey,I remind now of the storey every time he says he can't do something..He is my little could engine. .xo

Past due

Well it's been months since i was on here,been busy or just played out.Lot's have changed with my boy since i was on here last.I bragged and bragged about my boy not going threw those terrible 2's,so much i think it came back and bit me on my butt..My son is now hitting the terrible 3's!From taking the fits,kicking, to talking back,you name it, it's here.It doesn't happen often,but it has started.He has hated to go to bed for awhile now,and uses every excuse to stay up..When in bed,he starts from,I'm hungry,i need to poop,my belly hurts,im scared,i need a drink ect ect,and sometimes uses all of them...He now has a night light and his door stays open a crack,this seemed to help in the beginning but slowly is getting old and he is now trying and wanting different things to stay up..lol.It can be soo frustrating and tiresome sometimes,but not for long...It than hits me that i have waited soo long to go threw these things with my own child and time flys sooo fast..I take the good with the bad(and there is always more good than bad)and always laugh after..My son is such a good boy with a huge heart and is full of compassion.So the terrible 3's really are not soo terrible..He surprises us almost everyday with the things he says and does,and sometimes can be even smarter than us(wouldnt take much,lol).He has been such a hand full going to bed yelling for something different about 100 times after he is in bed.So one night i said no yelling tonight Jonathan right?He said yes Mama..I was so tired that day,and mins after he went to bed,he yelled Mommy Mommy..I went in with a stern voice and said what Jonathan???He is my batteries died in my fish(his night light).I said and still in a stern voice ok lay down i will go get some batteries.Than i came back in the room put the batteries in and kissed him again and said good night.He said Mama?Are you angry?I said no Buddy just tired.He said because i didn't cry or yell,the batteries just died in my fish?My heart dropped and he was right.I kissed his little cheeks and said i love you and went out of the room,he didn't yell again.Than as i was sitting at the computer,thinking about losing my patience and what he had said.I wanted to go in and say sorry...But thought maybe i shouldn't, he might wake back up and things will start all over again.But i couldn't stand it,i went in and he sat up and said what Mama??I went over to him and kissed him and said i was sorry for being grumpy and that i loved him..As i got up to leave and started to close his door a bit,my 3 year old son sits back up and says Mama??I said yes?He said thank you....OMG..I felt better and didn't hear from him again till morning.The other day Steve was outside cutting the bushes and than soo did Jonathan.In a low voice i said to Steve,you know someone wants to be just like you(without saying Jonathan's name)Jonathan than speaks up from no where and says yes Daddy because i love you very much!OMG again,than the tears came again,lol.Still no luck in a sibling for Jonathan and breaks my heart each and EVERYDAY..My son is such a lucky boy and wants for nothing..But you know you could bring Disney to him and he wouldnt even care unless he had someone there to play with him...And that's what kills me..I watch him in the back yard playing by himself, singing and talking to himself,and i feel soo guilty..I play with him all the time and he loves it however i can't all day long.I see pics posted on facebook ect with 2 kids together in the tub,Christmas and it makes me sad.....To be honest i don't miss the baby days,the poop,sleepless nights,all the stuff you have to bring with you just to go get loaf of bread..lol..I want this baby not for me,Steve,but for my boy,everything is for my boy..We have not given up hope just yet but feel my time is running out..Fingers crossed.....Everything is crossed..

A few random funnies from my 3year old boy

Nothing much new going on since i was on here last,other than a few funny things that my son has been coming out with.lol....We were driving in the car the other day and Jonathan yells from the back seat,are we going on the bridge Mama?Are we going on the bridge??I said yes we are and here we go....Jonathan than yells, no Mama the big bridge,i said this is the big bridge,not sure what he was talking about..Than he speaks up and says the one with the cover on it..lol,Took me a sec to think,than i got it, it was the PM bridge he was talking about..lolololol...So we drove around and went on that one too..lol..On the same drive we were talking about foods and meals that he needs to eat to get big and strong...I said after you eat your lunch that makes you big and strong THAN you can have a treat.There was silence in the back seat for a a sec than he speaks up and says.Look Mom,I'm tall enough ok???In other words just give me the dam treat already...lolol.Steve's truck was at the garage the other day and Jonathan had a hard time to understand where his truck was..Knowing Dad was home but his truck wasn't..So on and on the questions came,where's Dads truck?Dads here,where is his truck?lol..So i tried to explain to him that the truck was broke and there was a man there going to fix it.....Well you could almost see the wheels truning in his little head..lol...Than what does Jonathan say????Is the man going to put a bandaid on it to make it feel better????I said yes Hun,something like that..Soo cute.Everynight we have a routine before he goes to bed(seems to be getting longer by the day)bath,snack,stories,bed,songs,ect....Well in one of his books there was a boy in the book singing,so there were pics of music notes above the boys head..Jonathan pointed to the notes and asked what they were.I said they are music notes Buddy..See he is singing and music is coming out of his mouth...Those pics mean music...He than gets up from the couch and starts to sing, looking in the air very closely....Hey he says,i dont see my notes coming from my mouth,and you could see the disappointment in his face..lol..I tried to explain the notes are pic's of music on on paper,naaaaaa didn't work...I moved on..LOL...My son is starting to notice everything and everyone now(VERY LITTLE THING)I had a friend over the other day who has a chest quite a bit bigger than mine(which is not rare,lol).I noticed him looking at her and out of the blue he says and points,you have big boobies!!!!!!!OMG...We just laughed,i jokingly said yes Hunny like Mama.(big mistake)Wellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll he wasn't long to correct me.He said nope...You have little ones like me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!NICE!!!!lololol,OMG.It's not often i sit down and watch TV before my boy is in bed,but the odd time i like to watch Oprah.(can you see where this is going?)So Jonathan now knows mommys show is called Oprah,so everytime time i have it one he speaks up and says there's Oprah!!I say yes it is....No biggy...Well now anyone that has any amount of color he THINKS IS OPRAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!UGH!Just waiting for him to call someone Oprah now....My boy keeps me laughing every single day,i don't know what i would do without him..I love him soo much.

My boy is 3

Well another year has came and went,and went pretty fast i must say..Our boy is now 3!!!Wow,since before i was pregnant i always said i will make my kids birthday cake every year,thought it would be nice and made from the heart..Well thats all it was made with..lol..Each year his cake never turns out how i want it too.Butttt i it's still great because being 3 doesn't take much to make him happy,and i think he was.Since Jonathan was around 3 or 6 months of age he has loved Baby Einstien,and still does to this day.Sooo i tired to make him his caterpillar and he loved it,so that was all that mattered.We have a new fav latley,we have been going sliding and swimming to pass the time to give us something different to do.He just loves getting out of the house,whenever we are leaving somewhere he says are we going home now?I say yup,than the whining starts,i don't want to go home,he says everytime..lol..Like we lock him up in his closet at home or something..lolol...Today we went swimming and while waiting for Tash to meet us we sat out in front by the desk where we pay.The lady working said hello.Jonathan said hello..And from no where Jonathan looks at her and says are you a girl???OMG..Because really i had a hard time telling myself..lol...She said yes are you a boy and laughed,Jonathan than stood up grabbed his crotch and said yes i am,because i have a peeper!!!!!!!!OMG!!!Soooo funny we all laughed so hard..

I don't feel good.....

The first year and a half of Jonathan's life,i don't ever remember him getting sick.People use to say to me how lucky i was to have a healthy kid..Welllllll,than comes daycare,and since than it went down hill from there.The first 6 months of daycare he caught everything,EVERYTHING.He was sick at least once a month if not twice.Summers are not too bad but winter time,look out.Jonathan has a new saying now,i dont feel good, even when he does,he knows how to milk the system already.He'll say I dont feel good than hang his little head down and say a chocolate will make me feel better,or any kind of treat..LOLOL..Once i cave he smiles and says awwww i feel better now..LOLOL....So the other day he was going on i don't feel good i don't feel good.I said well if you don't feel good we can't go for a drive to town,than he jumped up and said i feel good i feel good...Well talk about cry wolf..lol..He really didn't feel good,i felt so bad...When he had a nap before we were going to leave he woke up with a fever!!UGH,poor guy..When Jonathan is sick he gets to sleep with me the first couple nights,the night i put him to bed in his bed,he still wasnt the best.He woke up only a few hours of sleeping crying.I couldn't put him in bed with me that night cause i knew Steve had to work the next morning.Soo i rubbed his back till i thought he would fall back to sleep,but before i was out the door Mama dont go,soooo i crawled in bed with him thinking he would fall asleep faster,but he knew everytime time i tried to leave..So i just slept with him,in his little single bed i was pressed up againt the cold wall like a sardine while my son was a octopus,legs everywhere,tring soo hard not to move....Well buy the time 3am came around i thought well,im gonna just sleep on the floor beside him.I couldn't go sleep on the couch or my bed cause i knew when he turned over he would be looking for me.When the sun came up i heard MAMA MAMA??I said im down he Buddy..lol...Than i seen these big 2 eyes looking down at me,watcha doin down there Mama???I said trying to sleep..lolololl.....Than he crawled down from his bed and curled up to me on the floor..

A new year

Well it's a new year already and Jonathan will be 3 in no time.As i always say he makes me laugh at least twice a day with the funniest things he says.Where he is a little pro now at going to the bathroom,the lastest funnys have been in there.He has this thing now that when he has to have a poop i have to hold his shirt up so he doesnt get poop on it..lol.No idea,never happened.Anywayyyyy so i do,he says quick quick Mama hold my shirt up..lol..The other day i was in the bathroom he walked in and i was PEEING,he runs right over to me and tugs my shirt up in the back and says there ya go Mom,i'll hold your shirt for ya..LOL..He also now has a great imagination too,he likes to say what animal he is poopin out,gross but soo funny..Mama i just pooped a elephant out today!!Jonathan still wears a pull up at bed time and sometimes even they leak through,and when they do,lol,he wakes up yelling oh Mama to sweaty,too hot in here,my pants are too sweaty..lol..I say no buddy,i think your wet,your pull-up leaked.Nope,he says,i'm clean,just sweaty..lol......Jonathan now has a new funny with my sister too.I dont think he has ever took notice of people's hair that has bangs...Well,lol,my sister has bangs and he was sitting on her,looked at her hard and said why you have baloney on your head and tried to push them back????Again no idea...Why baloney??We laughed sooo hard,my sister now has a new name, baloney head.....