funny how things change...

Since i was little i always wanted to have children,1 or 2.Whenever anyone ever asked me what i wanted to be or do in life,it was to be a mom,everything else was just a bonus.However i must say before having Jonathan i found myself more drawn to animals,if i seen a baby or a puppy i would run to the puppy.Funny how things change.Now every small child i see,i like to talk to them or relate them to Jonathan.Jonathan has that shirt,or Jonathan would love that hat,or wow she is big for her age,ect.Every week at work this man comes in with these sweet 2 little girls,close to Jonathan's age,i would say around 2 and 3 with long red hair and full of energy!I think of Jonathan every time i see them because 1 has a plug(soother)and the other carries a blanket,my son uses both..lol..It's soo cute how he comes in every week with this big double stroller and these busy little girls.I often wonder is he a single Dad,widow,or maybe just a stay at home Dad while the Mom is out working?I have never seen anyone with him each week.I often give the girls suckers when they come in and they like to pick which color.This week was a different kind of week when they came in.I noticed only 1 in the stroller and he was carrying one.The one he was carrying was lying her head on him clinging to her blanket,and looking at me with red circles under her little eyes and all her hair was gone...........I didn't know what to do,say, or how to react,i was honestly hoping someone else would wait on them this week,my emotions were taking over and tried so hard not to cry or to make an excuse to run to the bathroom.Just last week there were 2 little girls running around giggling,laughing.I could only once again just think of my boy..Wondering how that father felt,what he was going threw.Wondering what kind of horrible sickness that sweet girl had.He was next in line,and i got him...I smiled,he smiled,we made small talk.I tried to carry on as per usual,but couldnt get him out of there fast enough to find myself in the bathroom,taking beep breaths and trying to pull myself together for the rest of the day.They were on my mind all day.I will not take 1 day for granted with my son,even when he is bouncing off the walls or when he is licking my clean windows,i will play with him everyday and tell him everyday.....I LOVE YOU.

Jonathan and Samantha

The other day i babysat Samantha,she is almost Jonathan's age.She is a little girl i babysit a couple times a week for a playmate for Jonathan and the exta cash doesn't hurt.Jonathan LOVES Samantha,however does not LOVE her playing with any of his toys,not one.lol.(He is getting better though)Jonathan has this toy car he can sit in that is really for outside but he loves it soo much i have it in the middle of my livingroom,he just loves it.Wellllllllllllllll,you would think the world is coming to a end when Samantha sits in it.When she sat in it, he cried,screamed,tears,you name it,he did it,just to try to get her out of it.I said Jonathan it's Samantha's turn,you have to wait.Well after trying everything to get her out of it and nothing seemed to work ,he spotted a fruit loop on the floor from this morning that they had for a treat.He looked at the fruit loop,than Samantha than back at the fruit loop.I was thinking to myself,oh my God,is my 2 year old going to try to bribe Samantha with this 1 fruit loop just to try to get her out of that car?He pointed to the fruit loop(which they fight over too)than said Saaaaaaaaaamantha fruit loop,fruit loop!!Well didn't she make a run for it,and out of the car she went and the car was his!!LOL..I never seen his little legs run that fast before,and smiling from ear to ear while sitting in that car.I was shocked,and tried SO hard not to bust a gut with laughter.Later on that day Samantha had the biggest poop ever and of course Jonathan comes running to check things out!lol..I opened up her diaper and the look on Jonathan's face was priceless!Than he said Mama gusting,Mama gusting,i said,what Honey?What are you trying to say?Than i remembered,he was trying to say what i have said before when i got that kind of surprise in his diaper.DISGUSTING!!!I can't count how many times i laugh each day because of my boy,he is sooo funny..

Today was a great day!

Today was a great day..It was a family day.Steve went to work a bit early so he could come home a bit early so we could take our boy out for a day in the sun and it was a nice one!We went to the park,Dairy Queen,the green to look at the water,and than we walked around Killarney Lake.It was soo nice..I love it when we have a chance to do things together as a family,and it's sooooo obvious Jonathan does too.All day long when we looked at him all we could see was teeth!He smiled and laughed all day long.He would even fall or run into things,and didn't even cry a bit or say Mama kiss it,Daddy kiss it,ok maybe once,but if he did it home he would have done it everytime..lol.But he enjoyed himself so much today,he didnt even care,he just kept on going.At the end of the day it was the first time when we asked Jonathan,are you tired Buddy?He said yes..lol.I always look forward to the times we spend together as a family,as we dont get a chance to do it often due to work,money ect.But you dont need money to enjoy the little things in life,just a walk around the lake made our boy's day,and mine,and didn't cost a thing!Steve often teases me that i enjoy our famliy time more than Jonathan does,maybe i do,but i dont think soo.Latley even when we are all together just eating,watching tv ect,Jonathan goes around the room with his little finger pointing out saying,Mama,Daddy and than himself Jonathan with a big smile.It was a great day..

Blow on it Mama

Where Jonathan is into everything,like every toddler,we have always tried to tell Jonathan when not to touch if it's too hot.At meal time we have shown him to blow on hot things to cool it down,we say blow on it Jonathan,too hot.So now anything and everything that we say is hot he has to blow on it,or get someone else too just in case..Soo funny.The other day it was nice and hot out,Jonathan now knows how to open and close our WINDOWS in the livingroom.Wellllll warm air must have blew in,Jonathan looks at me from across the room and says,hot Mama hot.I said yes,it's the sun,its hot outside.He said,blow on it Mama,blow on it,too hot!LOLOLOL..I laughed soo hard..

Daddy do it!

Since my son was born everyone including my husband said that Jonathan is such a Mama's boy.He would cry when i left the room,even to go to the bathroom.Most of the time if i left the house without him i would have to sneak off or he would cry for a long time after.Mama this,Mama that. I am not sure who has the hardest time when we are apart,Jonathan or myself.It's not often i do anything without my son but sometimes look forward to the time by myself even if it was just to run to the store for the mail.However when i do make plans for myself to go do something i am so excited,but than i find myself counting the mins for when i return home to my son,wonder what he is doing all the time and miss him soo much.I went out to dinner with my sister awhile back just to get out of the house,she was running late,so i called her to see if i could order for her just to hurry up supper so i could get back home..lol..Crazy i know.Steve has been working soo many hours latley everyday,in the past weeks i notice more and more how much Jonathan misses his Dad.It's soo cute,when we are all together latley,i can't even put Jonthan's coat on.Daddy do it!He says..We had breakfast this morning and i went to give him a bite of my toast but he only wanted Daddy's toast..I try to sing songs with Jonathan everyday,he loves it.I was singing in the car this morning on the way in to drop Steve off to work,but got interrupted by a little voice behind me.Daddy do it!! lolol..Jonathan has now started to cry when we drop his Dad off to work,so this morning we saved the Tim's run till after we dropped him off so i could get Jonathan his favorite donute.( so he could have something to look forward too)When we dropped Steve off,he started to cry,i said,it's ok Bud,Mommy go get you a donut?He got so excited kissed his Dad good bye and said..Thank you Daddy for the donut!!Steve looked at me and we both busted a gut with laughter.He said no problem Bud anytime..Sooo funny.

Kiss it

From the day our son was born,steve and i has always seemed to try to kiss away any sadness or pain our son might have had,because that's what parents do,they make it all better,were magic,we can fix anything with a kiss,right??Jonathan once hurt his toe,i remember seeing him hop around on one leg going from me to Steve,Steve to me for a kiss to make it all better,well we must of took to long,because by the time one of us got to him to kiss his toe he got tired of holding that one up in the air and put the other one up instead for a kiss.Must have hurt real bad,lol, but just as long as he got a kiss..Too funny.The other day Jonathan bit his tongue by mistake and cried sooo hard and came running to me Mama kiss it,Mama kiss it,with his toung hanging out.I thought,oh no,lolol.I kissed my finger than placed it on his tongue and MAGIC!The pain was gone..Too cute.

Today

Today i will start a blog about my life as mom.My son Jonathan will be 2 and half soon and does so many funny things everyday that i thought i would write it down to share with others,and so i will never forget.I don't want to miss a thing! Life goes by soooo fast.Maybe my son will someday read this and enjoy this just as much..