MOM wanna play trains??

Well once again its been a bit since I have been on here.Halloween,Christmas,New Years and Jonathan's 4th birthday has now passed.Time goes by so fast,everything is soo busy and it feels like in a blink the months have passed.My boy is growing and with that the questions are never ending.His new interest and questions are about heaven,and I mean a lot of questions.I find it very hard to answer some of his questions where he is only 4 and I wasn't brought up in church myself.He knows there is a place up in the clouds called heaven.He asks how do we get there?How do we get down?Maybe we can bring a latter to get back down lol??One day he was asking again I and I told him that someone day we all go there,like,we have this home here and when its our time to go to heaven that will be our new home..Welllll I wasn't even finished saying that when I noticed his little eyes fill up and he tried so hard not to cry.I though oh gawd what did I say wrong?Did I say to much?Did I scare him??I said what's the matter Jonathan?He said, but but mom.....and then the tears flew...What about my trains????Can they come with me??LOLOL..I said yes dear,its ok they can go with you..lolol..So Sunday school it is I think coming up for my boy..His trains...His trains..He loves his trains..Since he was 2 he started to love trains,all trains but Thomas is his fav...Everyday he plays trains even if its for only 10 mins or so,and you always hear Mommmmm wanna play trains?Wanna play trains?Wanna make a new track??We play a lot,some days I think to myself oh gawd not again but I do end up dragging myself to the floor and we play.I remind myself every time i don't want to play that one day there will come a time he won't ask.A time where he will want to be with his friends,a time where there will be no toys/trains all around my house..A time he will be all grown up.Some people cherish their house,take pride in the fancy things,things in its place,and having a nice house.I however cherish my home,mess,toys and all,my home is very much lived in,played in and I like to think laughed in.His 4th birthday...We had all his little friends over from daycare,it was a busy day.He had fun.One thing about that day I will never forget is when we all gathered around the table waiting for Jonathan to make a wish before blowing out his candles,we all got a huge surprise in what he had to say.I said go ahead Jonathan make a wish,with no idea what he was going to say,he said I wish...I wish...And i was thinking oh gawd what is gonna come out of his mouth???lolol..And in a little tiny voice Jonathan says..I wish..I just love my family...lol..Everyone including me was soo shocked I was waiting to hear a wish for another train again..lol..I could of blatted right there..It meant a lot to hear that,and from a 4 year old boy..I know some people had to think we got him to say that but we didn't..It was soo nice.On another note,lolol,my boy asks me,Mom do you know my fingers can say bad words??lololol...Nice, i thought,good gawd,the things he picks up from daycare.lololol..I think the questions are only going to get harder from here..